This is my life.

I can already tell that this is going to be tough. I like to write. I want to write. when I start to write I forget what I want to say or the words get jumbled up in my head and come out all wrong.

I'm 44 years old, and have no idea what to do about my life. I had no proper training or motivation on what to do with it. My mother told me I wouldn't amount to anything at all and in fact wouldn't live past my 21st birthday. How can I compete with something like that????

I'm sitting here in my room with the a/c on and my dog sitting next to me. Its hot as hell here in Las Vegas and I can't stand it anymore. I have no job, the job I did have was cancelled for the summer because there wasn't enough kids signed up for it. Then to make matters worse I hear that safekey is no longer going to be around because the city cannot afford to keep it going. I started putting in applications and now have an interview at Macy's. And the safekey office called to tell me I'm signed up to start training for the new school year. I don't know who to believe or what to do about it all. I guess I will go to this interview and if the money and hours are good,I will have to stop doing the safekey because the hours will conflict with each other.

This is my crazy life and it will get even crazier.