What to do, what to do!!

The child care job with the city is working again. I only get to work mornings, 2 whole hours a day. It drives me insane. I've been looking for another job but still can't find something. I don't know what else to do. Vic's unemployment is going to run out in about a month or so and he still hasn't looked for work. I'm not even sure he is trying and I'm afraid to ask. What the hell are we going to do? I freak out on a daily basis now. My nerves are all jumbled and I can't control any of it. I can't take care of myself on 2 hours a day much less the three of us. No one is going to help. This feeling is worse than what I felt being worthless on welfare. And I can't even get back on that. We finally got the DL back so we can drive now but thats not going to help if we can't pay the fine or take the classes so that we can get over the DUI. Some days I wish I were dead but then I freak out thinking who will take care of my son or my husband. Whats worse is I have no one to talk to about it and no one will listen or help me figure it out. I am doomed.